Why me ?

Time is passing, and I am still waiting for the white list, there is no response from the officials so far except for those previous messages..., I really started losing hope little by little, all this time and I was taking my time and entering this platform for hours and days But in the end this happens to me, I failed on this platform as I failed in many areas,I don't know if I've been good BBS ARMY  with you all this time, really I'm sorry ... I think I am a very unsuccessful person.